Incompetence, Fornication, and Lies
I can't do anything.
I love to draw, I can draw when I have nothing to do. When I'm listening, or when I'm just thinking.
But today, in church, I couldn't, it just stopped. The flow of momentum of the creative thought of my mind just dried out.
And then I just got depressed about everything, about my religion, about my life in general.
I have a great life really but just I'm depressed.
I guess it may be that my fiancee who lives in another state right now got drunk one night and thinks she slept with her best friend and might be pregnant right now.
Yeah that just leaves me all warm and fuzzy on the inside.
I want to have children with her but I don't want to have a child with her where her child isn't even related to me at all. I love her with all my heart and I don't want anything bad to happen to her. But I just hate how I asked her not to drink around other men because I know the nature of men, because I am one, what drives them is sex when they are drunk nothing else.
What drives me is two things God and love. I fucking hate drugs and alcohol more than anything else. I have seen what drugs do to good people and what alcohol does to intelligent people, It turns them into the thing that they hate most and they don't even know about it.
I love her with all my heart and if she is pregnant and has a baby and we do get married, which we will, I will treat that child as my own. But as all people who don't want a child, I pray to God that she isn't pregnant.
She's only sixteen about to be seventeen in October she's a year and six months younger than I, and she might be having a baby.
They say God works in mysterious ways, well so does my mind in all and all.
You know everyone who is deeply in love and will wait for sex till' they are married and their partner is not a virgin kind of makes you wish that they were, just so you both can be new to something such as that, but people are stupid and inevitably doomed to do stupid things.
This was going to be a rant at how much I hate humanity but I guess I failed in that along with everything else.
This blog was suppose to be amusing thoughts to keep peoples attention at how weird I am.
I guess I fucked that up too.
My life is a lie to all the right things but is a distraught to all the wrongs in humanity.
We are all conniving devious people with good hearts on the inside and most seem to shield that good heart with distrust and ignorance we all have failed to she how media has accomplished to gain our attention and minds. We do what they say for us to do. Television shows tell us that smoking and sex and alcohol is good and that it will make you seem like a better person, in looks and personality. Well as everything on television is...IT LIES! Along with people.
well, all have a certain loyalty in the media, It gives us lies that we seamlessly mistake for truth, and that we find comfort in the media.
End
I love to draw, I can draw when I have nothing to do. When I'm listening, or when I'm just thinking.
But today, in church, I couldn't, it just stopped. The flow of momentum of the creative thought of my mind just dried out.
And then I just got depressed about everything, about my religion, about my life in general.
I have a great life really but just I'm depressed.
I guess it may be that my fiancee who lives in another state right now got drunk one night and thinks she slept with her best friend and might be pregnant right now.
Yeah that just leaves me all warm and fuzzy on the inside.
I want to have children with her but I don't want to have a child with her where her child isn't even related to me at all. I love her with all my heart and I don't want anything bad to happen to her. But I just hate how I asked her not to drink around other men because I know the nature of men, because I am one, what drives them is sex when they are drunk nothing else.
What drives me is two things God and love. I fucking hate drugs and alcohol more than anything else. I have seen what drugs do to good people and what alcohol does to intelligent people, It turns them into the thing that they hate most and they don't even know about it.
I love her with all my heart and if she is pregnant and has a baby and we do get married, which we will, I will treat that child as my own. But as all people who don't want a child, I pray to God that she isn't pregnant.
She's only sixteen about to be seventeen in October she's a year and six months younger than I, and she might be having a baby.
They say God works in mysterious ways, well so does my mind in all and all.
You know everyone who is deeply in love and will wait for sex till' they are married and their partner is not a virgin kind of makes you wish that they were, just so you both can be new to something such as that, but people are stupid and inevitably doomed to do stupid things.
This was going to be a rant at how much I hate humanity but I guess I failed in that along with everything else.
This blog was suppose to be amusing thoughts to keep peoples attention at how weird I am.
I guess I fucked that up too.
My life is a lie to all the right things but is a distraught to all the wrongs in humanity.
We are all conniving devious people with good hearts on the inside and most seem to shield that good heart with distrust and ignorance we all have failed to she how media has accomplished to gain our attention and minds. We do what they say for us to do. Television shows tell us that smoking and sex and alcohol is good and that it will make you seem like a better person, in looks and personality. Well as everything on television is...IT LIES! Along with people.
well, all have a certain loyalty in the media, It gives us lies that we seamlessly mistake for truth, and that we find comfort in the media.
End
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